Save Yourself

Head is hot. Breath is lost. Lips quiver. Eye sight gone. Completely drowning. Thoughts that were once modest and pure become mean and loud..Who's going to save you now?

I wish I could say it was peaceful down here. I want something to pull me back up. But what? Free falling deep down, sinking in my thoughts is what's making me drown.  

Fear says, "you're too weak, you don't stand a chance." 

Doubt says,"It's not worth it, you're better off down here."

Anger says, "Here you will stay, lost, mean and afraid."

Suddenly, an anchor drops. A hand shoots down and the sinking stops. Latching on so tight, pulling me up effortlessly towards the blue skies and warm sunlight. Slowly regaining consciousness. All is a blur, and all I want now is to look my savior in the eyes. 

Here I am, standing all alone. Starring at the sign: "Me, myself, and I, on duty at all times." 

Human element- fear

Everyone has a general feeling of anxiety. Anxiety is caused when we worry too much about something, and start arguing back and forth with our own thoughts. The simple solution to getting rid of a piece of garbage on the floor is to pick it up and throw it away, and never see it again. If you are constantly trying to eliminate your negative thoughts and tell yourself not to think about them, its almost impossible to stop thinking about them completely.

 The mind is an extremely powerful and complex thing: Ironically enough, its in our very own head and its even more complex than one could ever imagine. Doubts, negative thoughts, worrying.. its all normal. But to a certain extent. Sometimes it can even feel as if it's taking a toll on your life. You want to make sure that every one of those negative thoughts will never become a reality. Since thoughts like these are normal and will always find a way to come back, instead of arguing and opposing them, accept what is actually good, what is bad, and what is certainly unlikely to happen. 

 And remember, everyone worries about something. Nobody is better than you, or stronger than you just because they might not worry as much as you. Life is such a beautiful thing. Life gets hard but there are things that make it so much better. Make those things on the top of your list to helping you get past any type of fear.  

Sincerely,

Rebecca

The 5 simple rules to being happy

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.


2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happens.


3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.


4. Give more.


5. Expect less from people but more from yourself.

Don't worry twice

Don't worry twice. What does this mean? Exactly what you think: If you're worried about something that has already happened, but then you start to worry about what will happen next, or the outcome.. you're worrying twice. There is absolutely no sense in being worried about something that hasn't happened yet. It's up to you to make the outcome what you want it to be, not what you're afraid or worried about. There are going to be things things that are completely out of your control. You can't make decisions for other people. You can try to change their minds all you want. To be realistic, people never want to be proven wrong or detour away from what they truly believe in. So what do you do? Whether the outcome be what you want or not, this is not giving up. Accept it, and move forward.

If something hasn't happened yet, it makes no sense to stress yourself out and worry about it.


Sincerely,

Rebecca

Head high

You're going to have those moments, days, months, where you feel weak; when you feel as if you are completely failing. Where you feel like you have completely fallen and hit rock bottom. Those feelings are completely normal, even for someone who claims to be strong.

Sincerely,

 Rebecca

Sunday

I used to hate Sundays. Mainly because it reminded me of the weekend being over and having to go back to school the next day. Sundays in college feel a lot different than they did when I was in high school. I feel a lot more relaxed and happier. My dad is on his way to pick me up and take me to eat, and after to do some shopping at target. I like spending time with my father. Especially on Sunday's. When I was smaller, my family: my mom, dad, brother and I would take a trip up by bear mountain. We'd either just buy sandwiches and eat them at a random secluded spot in the woods, or go hiking or something like that. It was nice. Sundays remind me of those days. It's a good feeling.

My Sunday has been significantly productive. I got to see my father, got some food shopping done, bought a new phone case, drove around for a bit.. Being around where I used to live always brings back so many memories. As we passed by my elementary school, I remembered everything from taking the cheese bus in the morning, walking in the building, going to my classroom, having lunch and recess, playing with the boys because I hated how delicate and boring the girls were to play with, gym class.. Basically everything. I didn't have many friends in elementary school. I had my two close friends who lived next door that went there but that I never saw because we were all in different classes, but other than them, I really didn't have any friends. It's not that I didn't want friends, it's just that no one really wanted to be mine haha. It's funny to me because it was funny to me even back then. I really didn't mind. Life is always unpredictable and leads us in a different direction everyday whether we realize it or not. We grow, things change, and whether we believe this or not either, we all find and make new friends along the way.

Well since I'm back, I'm ready to fulfill the rest of my Sunday by studying for my Macroeconomics exam tomorrow. JOY.


Sincerely,

Rebecca

There is a start and end to everything

Well I've had this blog since December 2009 and this is my very first post.. but there's a start to everything, right?

 So, there is a start and end to everything. This we see in everyday life. It amazes me how minutes turn to hours, hours turn to days, days turn to months, months turn to years and so on and so forth. There was a start to my life and although it hasn't ended yet, there are things that have, some I'm glad that has, and others I wish hadn't.. But then again I have no regrets (so far) seeing that this new start to my life has made me the happiest I've been in a very, very long time. This is not at all where I wanted to be. The college I am in right now was not only my only choice, probably the last place I wanted to go to school until I decided to make the best of where I was, and let the best of people come into my life. Now who said that an end to things had to mean a bad thing? I was absolutely miserable my first two weeks of college, so much so that at one point I thought of already dropping out.. seriously.. Well that horrible feeling of depression has definitely ended, and the start to a new and happier life has commenced.

Sincerely,

Rebecca